Okay, so today I have made myself a bit of a discovery. Well, to be fair, I have known of this for a while, but it was confirmed to me by a piece of software called ‘unstuck’. My discovery is quite simple, and it is this, my carers do not allow me to have my own self will. This was seem a bit silly, as an idea, at first, but however it makes sense. You see, each individual has their own wants and desires which will transpire into the self-will. As a result, my own will not coordinate with those of my carer, and so, whether they know it or not, they will destroy mine in favour of their own.
Let me give you an example of this. If you really fancy a biscuit, or a piece of chocolate, then the chances are that you will go and get some. Job done. In my case, I have to go and ask, then faced the third degree about why I want it; did I not eat enough? Were the portion sizes too small? Was it cooked wrong? Oh, and of course, did I not know that I should not do that because of the diabetes? So, at the end of the day, the decision is, ultimately, taken away from me.
So, what does this mean when it comes to my writing time? Well, disruption in a word.
I have just had an idea and started writing… Oh, it is time to eat or it is time that I should be in bed. You see, I may not be hungry or tired, but, my carer probably is. In the end, that dictates my life.
It is not just that, but, they will also find me with things to do that are suddenly urgent. This could be as simple as the post arriving, things needing signatures, or me going to look at something. It could be more complicated than that, and involve leaving the house entirely. It all amounts to the same thing, I am not by my computer and writing.
What does that piece of software recommend that I do? Simply, schedule things out, and put my foot down to force the events to take place at the set times. It sounds so simple, but I am not sure that it could really work. I mean, who am I to try and force another person into my schedule?
Any advice is welcome.